The Pain I feel.. Wish I knew what to do...

As time goes on in my life, I look back over the year of when I was young and now getting older.. I have seen that the one carried me through is the one I'm losing. I have leaned on her all my life.. and now it is her turn to lean on me.. It scares me to see her like this.. I never thought that my own mother would need me more then my brother.. but in life we have to make choices and deision that isn't going to go well or makr others happy.. all I can say is what about me.. Am I allowed to be happy am I allowed to be free. but it seems that I'm right back to plan A there was a plan B.. but I think that isn't going to take place.. What do I do now? is the question that races through my head. will my life being when she end.. But Lords knows I don't want that.. I want her to be here everything the growth of my kids and me having a happy life.. I want my mother to see these things.. but I don't want her life to go when I leave her... Why do you lean on me so much.. I can't handle this... I'm going crazy inside because I don't know what to do... Am I at fault for feeling this way. I am not strong enough for this....

Sitting in Class

Hey hey.. today is one long, I'm sitting here in class and my teacher is jumping around on the subject and I am so lost it is not even funny. But my classmates are pretty cool were we joke and play, but not to much. It is a very boring class, but they make it fun.. So coming to class is very worth it.. Electronic Commerce is the class that i'm taking tonight.. And I just found out that was some drama not to long ago.. can you imagne this crazy mess..

One of the student braclet broke and the other student that was sitting in front of her thought that she was throwing something on her and turn around to look at her like she was trying to start something. They keep me happy.. even though I'm so tired from work this morning.

I'm really not liking this class.. I don't like talking in front of people so this is going to get me issues with this....

Well I'm about to leave from class.. So maybe I will see you in-World...

Later....

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~SMJ~

I haven't login, in ages

It was good to see old friends and just stand around and talk....
to have fun and joke and laugh it felt like old times all over again...




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